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Difficult to Separate — How Healthcare Clinicians Carry Their Patients With Them

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In a valley shadowed

Recently I had a patient that impacted me deeply. Not to say that many don’t make an impression, but some more so than others.

My patient was a 41 year old young woman who within the past 2-weeks had surgery to her neck. She presented to the ER some days ago with her husband due to nausea and vomiting.

Often post-surgical patients can have nausea and vomiting due to many reasons. The pain medication as well as the pain itself are among some of the reasons why patients may experience nausea and vomiting.

Though upon further investigation we realized that she had been suffering with nausea, vomiting and headaches for many weeks prior to her surgery. This was thought to be symptoms related to her neck issues that would correct themselves after surgery.

She was acting very sedate and somewhat withdrawn. Usually cervical (neck) patients patients are often discharged the same day as the surgery and do very well.

I also noticed the way she let her hand just kind of stayed where I placed it and her fingers has a mild inward curling quality to them suggestive of cerebral injury . There seemed to be a lack of self concern and in the way she appeared emotionally detached from the present inconsistent with a person of her age.

She complained of a headache and consistent nausea. She had been taking nausea medication at home that did nothing to alleviate her symptoms. She denied any pain to her neck.

The doctor and I discussed the fact that she may have taken too much pain medication per her demeanor but when we requested some urine, she stated she did not know if she could urinate.

So we discussed getting a CT of her head and one was ordered along with images of her neck to rule out any post-operative problems.

Well the report revealed some distressing news.

A tumor of the brain. Could be a glioblastoma!

More follow up testing for confirmation and then we would have to transfer her to another hospital for follow up care.

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While she was having the MRI of the brain done, I went over to give her some nausea medication. The radiology tech showed me some of the images already taken and the tumor was clear to see.

We felt a palpable distress for this young woman.

The doctor and I had discussed the diagnosis and the prognosis. She told me of a colleague’s husband who had had a resection for glioblastoma and was doing well now some 2 years later.

We felt some hope.

As I walked back through the radiology depart toward my home in the ER, I said a quick prayer, “Dear God, please let this young woman be okay!”

The next workday the ER doctor gave me an update on the patient. The neurologist updated the ER doctor that a biopsy had confirmed she had glioblastoma and it was inoperable. He also said the patient was so confused.

We were filled with sadness for this lady and her family.


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Glioblastoma is the most aggressive tumor of the brain. It is one of the most deadly types of brain cancer.

A glioblastoma may occur at any age, though they usually occur after the age of 40 years. There is a peak incidence between the ages of 65 and 75 years.

They occur more frequently in males with a ratio of 3:2 M:F and Caucasians are affected more other ethnicities.

The current standard of care, inclusive of consisting of surgery, radiation and chemotherapy is quite simply ineffective.

 The survival rate of a person diagnosed with a glioblastoma is about 15 months.

Without treatment, survival rate is approximately 3–6 months. Though radiation and chemotherapy may prolong life, they greatly reduce quality of life. With this reduction in quality some patients decide against treatment to spend their remaining time the way they choose with their family.

Research has found that each glioblastoma is different and developing drug therapies must be focused to treat each occurrence individually.

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The Temporal Lobe

The temporal lobes aids the processing of speech and sound. It is also vital to the comprehension of language and speech.

Another primary role of the temporal lobes is in processing memory and emotion. The limbic structures of the temporal lobes are responsible for regulating emotions and the forming and processing of memories.

Patients with temporal horn injury may present in several ways:–

  • with focal neurological deficits
  • exhibiting symptoms of increased intracranial pressure, e.g., confusion.
  • may have seizures
  • headaches
  • vomiting
  • nausea

Treatment and prognosis

The treatment for glioblastoma includes:

  • Surgery to remove the glioblastoma. Your neurosurgeon will remove the the glioblastoma if it is possible and beneficial to do so. Because glioblastoma grows into the normal brain tissue, complete removal is not possible. For this reason, therapy will include additional modalities focused to target the remaining cells.
  • Radiation therapy. Radiation uses high-energy beams, such as X-rays or protons, to try and kill the cancer cells. During therapy, beams deliver radiation to precise points in your brain.
  • Radiation combined with chemotherapy. For people who can’t undergo surgery, radiation therapy and chemotherapy may be used as a primary treatment.
  • Chemotherapy. Chemotherapy uses drugs to kill cancer cells. In some cases, thin, circular wafers containing chemotherapy medicine may be placed in your brain during surgery. The wafers dissolve slowly, releasing the medicine and killing cancer cells.
  • Drug Therapy. Chemotherapy as a pill form known as temozolomide (Temodar) — is used during and after radiation therapy.
  • Tumor treating fields (TTF) therapy. TTF uses an electrical field to disrupt the ability of the tumor cells’ to multiply.
  • TTF may be combined with chemotherapy may be recommended after radiation therapy.
  • Targeted drug therapy. Targeted drugs focus on specific abnormalities in cancer cells that allow them to grow and thrive. Targeted therapy prevents collateral blood vessel formation to feed cancer cells.
  • Supportive (palliative) care. Palliative care is specialized medical care that focuses on providing some relief from pain and other symptoms.

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We care for patients every day. We do our best and often think of them and wonder how they are doing. Many times I have come home with a patient on my mind and cannot wait on the next day to get an update. Sometimes I do not wait and call my peers for an update.

Many we will soon forget.

There are however those who will always stay with us. You wish you could do more, help more, heal more…

You feel helpless and very human.

You feel sad, defeated and eventually hopefully you will reconcile that you are only human, incapable of really changing the outcome. All you can do is your job to the best of your abilities.

It is within your power to be empathetic, supportive then you must let go and let God.

The final decision is always his.

Emotionally there will always be those who remain with you, you will always recall specific details and you will always feel a little sad and helpless when they are called into remembrance.

Please pray for our patient.

Be safe and be well.

24 thoughts on “Difficult to Separate — How Healthcare Clinicians Carry Their Patients With Them

  1. Thank you for your care, and your prayers for your patient.
    You are working in partnership with the Great Physician.
    I will also pray for this patient. 🤗🌷

    1. I thank you and appreciate your prayers.

  2. Praying with you for your patient. May the Lord bless her and meet her every need.
    Blessings to you, as well as you serve Him in this occupation He has given you.

    1. Thank you my dear friend. Stay well.

  3. I think it’s great that your team was so diligent in trying to help her and find out what the problem was. Even if nothing can be done, I’m sure it’s good to at least feel heard. Compassion and concern goes a long way.

    1. Thank you. Blessings to you.

  4. Praying for your patient! 😢

    1. Thank you dear Ms Renee. Blessings.

  5. Wow. So sorry to hear this. I pray for healing for her and that she comes out of this situation soonest and better. 🙏
    Do take care too. 🤗

    1. Amen! Thank you for your prayers. Blessings.

  6. Pene, this woman’s story brought me to tears. I thank God there are people like you that God calls to be healthcare professionals. I pray for you and for this particular patient. Thank you so much for sharing this story with us.

    1. Thank you for your prayers. This young lady broke our hearts.

  7. This is very informative brain surgery

    1. Appreciate you my friend.

  8. Your post brought me to tears. For your sweet patient, for you, and your colleagues.

    I’ve never considered the emotional impact on healthcare workers. Not that I doubted the toll it can take but I’ve never read about it so openly and honestly as you just did. Any healthcare professionals I know don’t talk about it. Maybe wanting to let it go for a little bit.

    Thank you for my emotional education and it raises my already high regard for health care professionals!

    God bless you and your colleagues and thanks for your wonderful and compassionate hearts❣️🤗🥰

    1. Thank you so much for your kind response.

  9. I will pray for this patient, and also for you. You are such a caring person, and many have been blessed by your care and support. God works in mysterious ways and He is the ultimate healer. Each day we can only do our very best, and we ask God to bless the work of our hearts and hands. He is there in the midst of our comings and goings. You are in a field of work that requires so much, and yet, you bravely go forth each day, giving your all. That is a very beautiful thing, and you are a great witness to the faith God has inspired within you.

    1. Thank you so much my friend. God is indeed the ultimate healer.

  10. God bless you and your patients <3

  11. Thank you so much for the wonderful work you do Pene! My oldest brother died from this very thing within 9 months. God bless!

    1. Sad to hear that, this is a bad one.
      Stay well.

      1. Yes, it sure is.

  12. goodness, it takes a special person to work in healthcare. anyone is fortunate to have you by their side, Pene <3

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